it took me long.
but i finally understood what xiaoling meant when she told me all the time in ny that she hates changes.
tho im really q optimistic,
ive to agree (now) I HATE CHANGES.
tear down your facade.
can i do you the favor?
no i cant.
im jus not a born actress.
i dont know how to put on a pretense.
but, learn i will.
tomorrow will be better.
but still,
i miss the old times.